I just turned twenty-seven last March 9, 2009. I felt so mixed-up on the thought of turning a year older.Meanwhile, I felt very happy because I surpassed my mom’s age when she got married with my dad. I felt cynical because of the sad experiences I had this past ten months. I am already twenty-seven yet, I felt so helpless. I do not have a job. I got fired from my job months ago. Right now, I am dependent for my parents for my food, shelter and down to load expenses and net expenses. I am ashamed to ask for money from my parents. Yet,I do not have a choice. I am financially dependent on them.
I am reviewing for the bar exam right now. After September, I will look for a job. Coz, I do not want to depend on my parents for the rest of my life. I have to learn to stand on my own. I really wanted to assert my independence from them. I really like to save money for my own rents and save for my future house and lot. Tall order, right?
Hopefully, I will have a blessed new year this year. I can’t wait to start on my own. I am praying for God’s best. I am not looking for a possible heartbreak, but a lasting relationship that would hopefully lead to marriage. For now, I am enjoying my being single. It’s supaah liberating. I am free from stress(sigh). I do not cry myself to sleep anymore. God’s good! He carried me through when everything was crumbling down to pieces. Whew! What a relief!
I just turned twenty-seven and counting. I I am counting for more blessing, to pass the bar exam and have a very fulfilling job after. I believe, "I can."
Till my next blog peeps.
